Many of you know that waiting for a "match" is very stressful, but also very exciting. Our worker received 3 very good calls from social workers today. It is very exciting to realize that we are very likely VERY CLOSE to a match. Our worker isn't sending out any more homestudies for us until we here final words on these specific kids. I keep thinking that with 3 children/sib groups having workers "very interested" that surely we will hear something soon.
I ask that you all pray for God's will to be done. I am so excited to see what He has in store for us. I know from experience that there will be some stressful times waiting for official matches, getting them home, and helping them through past trauma/loss. I also know that I serve a BIG GOD who has it all under control and great things in store. Every hard moment has 100 good moments that will follow.
If you have never adopted a child then you probably don't know how it goes. Right now is like the beginning of pregnancy. Maybe you remember that time period where your heart was racing with anticipation at a positive pregnancy test?? Remember how much you loved that tiny person without even knowing who they really were or if they were a girl or boy? You would have immediately done anything for them! You loved them with a love that no one else could have possibly understood. That is the stage we are at in this next adoption. I know of specific children, but don't know which ones are mine yet. I pray for each one in my heart 100 times a day. I begin to "nest" and don't even know who or how many I am preparing for yet. I start to plan for Christmas (I know it is early but I have a lot of kids lol) or think of trips to the zoo or vacations and long to know who else will join us. I have a deep emptiness for that child that is filled with love that doesn't yet know who it is claiming.
Crazy stuff for most I know. It is the love of an adoptive mother who is in those beginning stages. I think of God's love and longing for me, even before I had accepted Him as Savior and chosen to be His "adopted" child. If my love is this strong, then imagine His!