Rest

My husband is so wonderful to do as much as he's been doing lately. I haven't been feeling well at all from the heart rate issues. It has left me very tired. (I mean imagine running a marathon even while sitting down. lol) He has been doing laundry, wrestling Julianne, and so much more. I couldn't ask for a bigger help!

Today he was off, so he did so much to help. The house is running smoothly. The children were well worn out and fell asleep easily. I got to sleep and get caught up on some much needed rest. I am very blessed.

This medicine seems to be doing a great job of getting the heart rate and things in check. I still tire easily and if I do too much then it goes up again. This is just a tiny dose of the medicine though to make sure how my body handled it. I go back to the doctor this coming week. I should be able to get the dose raised a little if needed then and be totally back to normal in no time.

I should be able to get the kids all ready for church in the morning. We have had to miss quite a bit lately as a result of this issue. I hate it when we don't make it to church. I know the kids and Brent do too. Things are as ready as possible tonight so that morning will be easier. I know Brent is ready to pitch in and help too. I can't wait to get back with our church family.

I think God has taught me a few things during this. One thing is that I don't have to do it ALL. I really LIKE to do it all. I don't like to need help. I like to have it "all under control". I like to get everything done without saying "help" on stuff that I normally do. (Everyone has some things that they always do to help out.) I don't like to say "Honey, I just can't get the laundry done", but I am able to say that. I do have a wonderful family who jump in and help. I do have a hubby who can keep that laundry rolling. I have kids who are glad to help set the table, put broccoli on plates, and give everyone dressing. I really can say "I can't". I mean I knew I could, but God knows that I don't like to say it. I guess He decided to teach me that my kids would like to help more with some stuff and that I don't have to be so fiercely independent. I guess I now where some of my kids got their stubborness. lol

I am very thankful for this crew! I know God has blessed me tremendously. I am hopeful that this medicine will continue to correct this heart rate thing and if the medicine needs to go up then we can do that too. I am so blessed!